1 month
It's been a whole month now since the beginning. I didn't feel too bad, I feel like I've been getting better over these past few days. Yesterday, I overheard a conversation about finding out the gender. They obviously weren't doing it to hurt me, I wasn't in the conversation and I had my back to it but I could hear it. It was hard to hear knowing no one would ask me that. I'm supposed to be 12 weeks on Friday. I should be getting excited about sharing the news but instead I'm trying to hold back tears while overhearing conversations. Someone asked me how I was doing today. All I could say was "up and down". I wanted to say more but I could stop myself from filling up. I just kept blinking until the tears went away and hoped she didn't notice. Obviously she was asking to be polite and to be kind which is lovely. But I just hate being asked. I just want to tell everyone I feel like absolute shit. But that's not really socially acceptable.